crossing fingers for tmr...and beyond

well its odd to have an entry on a thurs night, but i guess its because i'm having an interview for a permanent placement... at the liberty hsbc...

i did some research today while i was at work, and i think this is actually a really neat branch, and there are several things i like about it. too bad the people that i know from this branch is no longer there, but i do think that it'd be a nice place to work at, even considering that people have been telling me that the branch manager is a tough one!

so theres going to be a interview for tmr... part of me is worried... part of me not so much, maybe i'll be able to pull off a bs festival tmr during the interview or maybe i'll spend most of the day tmr at work preparing for it or something, who knows... but i do plan to prep myself at least a little bit before i head in instead of jumping right in gung ho style...

did some studying out tonight, despite the intense rain, kinda making sure that i'm discipline in that area, or else it'd be too late because i know that the coming weeks will have a lot of stuff happening so may not be able to get into complete studying mode.

also tmr is gg's delayed bday dinner, we're having sushi buffet... again1!! been pushing to go for something new and fresh, but its not my call so its all good, i guess you cant really go wrong with sushi buffet... unless the sushi goes wrong...=P

anyways, gonna be a pretty busy few wks for me before i get to hop on that plane for my trip, so just gotta keep the foot on the peddle and make sure i dont let go!

weee.... next stop!!!

ahh... feels like a big rock has been lifted from the top of my head! =D

well i thinki will be back posting on this blog... but with a small change, gonna switch up the name now... just need a change for the title but still thinking... kinda tough... want something nice, but i'll keep this one for now and i also made some minor adjustments :D well done !

next stop please, moving forward!

truthfully its so good to finally be posting again =D

a tough call...

*edited*


shhh...... keep your voices down!!

today after i did my laundry, i did a quick clean up of my room and i found a letter, i think the letter was from a LONG LONG time ago, maybe even within the first yr that i met you. it was nice reading it, made a lot of memories come back (again), but also made me realize some other things too...

well its been in my head for the past week or so... what should i do? but thats the problem with Gemini... all they do is think, and for once i need to do more than just thinking. i know i keep telling people you dont know until you try, but then i also know its much harder to take your own advice, but i'll do it this time. i'll try to let go, and what i told you during my trip (during the name of the card game) is still true, but i think i need to try to just keep it at that, the level of our companionship... i hope you remember what i told you that night, because i remember 99.3% of what you said, and it'll be etched into my memory along with a lot of other stuff thats already there... my memory is already really packed, but theres plenty of room for more, and hopefully there will be plenty more too

I know its hard... just a little bit more =D

the past few weeks seems to have been extra long without talking to you to lift up my day... but i guess i'll need to get used to that, cant always be so selfish, need to sum up the courage to make a decision, at least try to move on... and if i cant then its too bad for me

but i will try this way, and hopefully i'm strong enough to go through with it... you were/are/will be special to me, but maybe just wrong timing

maybe i'll be strong enough or maybe i'll just be waiting quietly...who knows...but the other blog will be paused temporarily, until i can find what i need to



thanks

because sometimes we just talk too much... and we dont appreciate the silence...

all decisions are tough...

keeping me awake...

well just cant quite seem to sleep tonight... just so many things keeping me up... cant quite put my finger on it, but whatever it is, its working too well =(

6 day work week.... sorta...

well after a hectic week at work (since i'm covering for someone's vacation) the weekend finally comes... like a gentle cool breeze in the summer... then suddenly it turns into a hurricane because i'm going to my workplace on saturday !!! well to study... but yes... i'm gonna focus all my energy on work and study... enough play!!

add OIL!!

be happy!

just lotsa work today... god dam work just seems to come outta no where and at the worst possible time too... (like right before the day's over)

just read your blog... like the title of your blog... its just things that you think about... so just put it out there, because no one can judge you on anything that you say =D especially on your own blog!

so dont be afraid!! and if anything i got your back! support you 130%!!

*hopefully you'll lose the clueless feeling soon, because i was pretty bummed a week back or so, just write it out and you'll feel better... it worked for me at least =D *

Doesnt the day go by much faster if you're happy? =D

experimenting on sunday!

well i'm trying to dedicate every sunday to just making some food and spend more time with my family... so sunday is truely a family day =D

today was experimenting with some pork bone soup, and was cutting up some onions, i didnt realize that it was true that cutting onions can make you cry!! well didnt cry, but could feel the tears a little bit.. =D

i know its the last day of ur trip =D hope u had a great time and everything between you and him works out ok... just know that deep down u want to see him and he wants to see you too! =D

enjoy your day.. goh goh =)

you are my sunshine, my only sunshine...=D

well as it seems like i'm going to have to borrow your favourite song... i dont know, it been playing itself in my head for most of the day...

today is good friday! so i was able to stay home and just relax and rest a little bit... which is much welcomed for sure. originally planned to go sing k today, but didnt end up happening because too many people flew airplane in the last minute, that actually turned out better because i was able to get a afternoon nap!! never knew that afternoon naps can be so good!

well i'm feeling not too bad today, more on the good side than bad... so hopefully the sun is shining for you today as well, because like my one and only sunshine, you make me happy and i hope you are happy too =D

small surprises...

well i was in the middle of work when suddenly my phone went off (in silent mode) it was a nice little message from someone across the atlantic... it was a nice surprise, lifted my day just enough =D

thanks! but dont waste ur sms on me silly =P i know its expensive, i wasnt expecting any replies anyways =P

rmb to keep in touch with other ppl here too!! i'm sure they're waiting to hear from you =D

follow...

it was good tonight that i finally got to chill with the guys (well partially alan, alex and gk) so it was nice to chat and blow water with everyone, it seems like its been forever since i've done that. it was nice to see what was happening with everyone's life and just to chit chat without having to worry about what i say or offend anyone, felt really free to speak my mind =D

but for some reason i wasnt able to voice part of what i wanted to tell... something that i just wanted to tell anyone about... although it was really nice that i was listening to everyone else and the things that were happening and going on with them, all i could think of was someone on the continent across the atlantic =(

i actually hypothetically asked one of my colleagues for some random advice, she told me that in these situations its best to just isolate myself from whatever is causing me to be so "law law luun" and that i'm still experience a holiday hangover and if i continue to do this i'll be the one that will end up feeling worse. i think theres some truth to that piece of advice, but then i just dont think i'll be taking those advice, maybe because i am stubborn =D

somehow i find myself following your blog more frequently now... i dont know... maybe i just wanna know more about you? because in the end, maybe we're more mysterious than we thought...

U turn.... sorta..

well was recently in a mini-slump... i guess thats what happens when you've been having such a great time for a short period of time, then you head back to reality then it suddenly hits you that reality is like...this*...

but with my struggles to cope with reality, i'm just trying to use work and study to see if i can get my mind of things... because thinking only leads to me thinking about how crappy this reality is...

so hopefully this is the beginning of my turnaround... a 180 degree from this slump and hopefully back on the positive side =D

so gotta start studying... no time for games and such :P