a tough call...

*edited*


shhh...... keep your voices down!!

today after i did my laundry, i did a quick clean up of my room and i found a letter, i think the letter was from a LONG LONG time ago, maybe even within the first yr that i met you. it was nice reading it, made a lot of memories come back (again), but also made me realize some other things too...

well its been in my head for the past week or so... what should i do? but thats the problem with Gemini... all they do is think, and for once i need to do more than just thinking. i know i keep telling people you dont know until you try, but then i also know its much harder to take your own advice, but i'll do it this time. i'll try to let go, and what i told you during my trip (during the name of the card game) is still true, but i think i need to try to just keep it at that, the level of our companionship... i hope you remember what i told you that night, because i remember 99.3% of what you said, and it'll be etched into my memory along with a lot of other stuff thats already there... my memory is already really packed, but theres plenty of room for more, and hopefully there will be plenty more too

I know its hard... just a little bit more =D

the past few weeks seems to have been extra long without talking to you to lift up my day... but i guess i'll need to get used to that, cant always be so selfish, need to sum up the courage to make a decision, at least try to move on... and if i cant then its too bad for me

but i will try this way, and hopefully i'm strong enough to go through with it... you were/are/will be special to me, but maybe just wrong timing

maybe i'll be strong enough or maybe i'll just be waiting quietly...who knows...but the other blog will be paused temporarily, until i can find what i need to



thanks

because sometimes we just talk too much... and we dont appreciate the silence...

all decisions are tough...