over the atlantic i go..

good byes are sad... even with prospect of meeting up with you soon... (as in 2 months) but i dont want to be selfish... and i know that you really want to go to greece... and with both marias going in june... if you choose to go to greece in june i won't blame you... since i just want you to be happy but just lemme know what your decision is ... =D either i'll understand cuz i'm such an understanding person hahaha i know i'm the best *wink*

well i'm back in toronto now, the only thing i could think of was to have this entry into my blog... i'll keep this blog only for you, and i'll make another blog for the general public

i know you've seen me smile for no reason a lot of the time during my stay, but i smile because i see something that i consider as perfection...thank you for making me smile....

sigh... today was really sad... like i said... i hate good byes and when i was listening to my iphone, when we were landing in toronto, i heard the song *yao ghon ching* by leo ku then suddenly i felt tears rushing to my eyes... it took me a while to realize the reason why i was so sad is because i was unconsciously listening to the music and how it says that friendship is forever... altho i am really happy that we are best friends... but part of me is extremely sad because moving forward our relationship is best friends + gorgor... i guess i need to be less selfish... and think about others too

i guess the tears will eventually stop flowing when i learn to fully accept this relationship between us... me as your gorgor...

but until then... altho i'm happy to see you and hear your voice, but everytime i hear those 2 words, my hearts feels like another stab.. although this is the first time u know this, dont let this change anything, continue calling me gorgor... because i need to learn to accept it...

thank you for understanding...

and i will post the pictures with u in them on this blog... so that u can get them...

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changing name back... to Apologies, Regrets, Cheers and Optimism =P








sorry if the picture quality is only so so